Setbacks

 The last time I wrote was a month ago, well, one day less than a month. Which is a win for me nonetheless! XD

As for the reason, I can blame a lot of things that went wrong OR went well. But I am not going to. I promised myself to write once a week, and it is not a huge goal to achieve! 

Still, in my defence, a lot of bad things have happened in the past month. A lot of "financial" loss. I have put financial in quotes here because a lot of my dear ones have said that all is okay till you and your dear ones are fit and fine. And no, I do not disagree, but I am really, really stressed! 

This is that time of my life where I can make the best of it! Either I can enjoy my young self, or I can change the destiny of my family. Since I am not much of a party person, I choose the latter with pride, and I work my ass off. No, literally, I work till I stop feeling my ass on the chair. 

And when you work so hard, you start having expectations, from everyone and everything! I try to control it, but it still happens. 

For instance, I expect that promotion, I expect my loved ones to understand that it is difficult for me to take out a lot of time right now, I expect financial growth, and I also expect that I am rewarded in certain ways by the universe. So when I was not rewarded as per my expectations, I was pissed and demotivated, and I wanted to make things right, which ended up making more things go wrong. 

So many things went so wrong at once that it took me a day to soak everything in and get back on my feet, and not before long, I could be sarcastic about it too! But sarcastic hone se ghar nahi chalta bhai (being sarcastic does not get your bills paid, brother), so I need 10 lac Indian Rupees to overcome this phase of my life LOL maybe 15. No bounds! 

It all started with my home needing renovation, and me still recovering from the financial turmoil that I caused myself after purchasing the flat in Pune. We hired a contractor, and he ended up charging us a premium. Like 10 times the cost he bore. I did not like that. But I was fine and I took it as a lesson that as a businessman, never be shy to ask for profits! Ask shamelessly to be rewarded shamelessly! 

It was not a long time before my Founder's edition Nvidia RTX 3060ti short-circuited! And it took down the SSD with it! Which meant years' worth of data and memories, just gone! More than the financial loss, it was an emotional loss to me also, since my brother and I roamed around the shops of Nehru Place, New Delhi, to get that PC built! So naturally, I took on an adventure, and I went back there to get this GPU repaired.  There, I finally found a shop which could repair broken GPUs for 5k rupees (I am not going to say bucks!) I was really excited, and I got all sorts of GPU benchmarks executed to ensure that the GPU was not problematic anymore. On the same day when I reached home at night, the GPU short-circuited again! 

I went to that shop again, only to hear that this time the GPU cannot be repaired, and I should get my card and payment collected. WOW!

Then a couple of days later, my brother's mobile got stolen! "But, Anchit, how does that affect you?"

I purchased that iPhone for him on my initial salary. iPhones are not cheap. They are much more. Like two months' worth of ass whooping more.

Eh, it's fine, I survived, but then in the same month, my MacBook Pro 2019 15-inch with an i9 processor and 32 GB of RAM died. Just normally sitting on my desk died!! It was costly. The one with a fancy touchbar. It had so much data! All the coding projects I built throughout my career and all the e-documents I ever owned are just gone! To add a cherry on the icing, it will cost me 40k to get it repaired! 

In the same month, I have to file 3 lac worth of taxes too!

I have more financial losses and big clients who left me!, But I will not bore you guys more. The reason I am sharing this is that I want you guys to understand that life is not perfect and that setbacks happen. What matters is that you should have the courage to jump back up at the right moment and be patient. 

Throughout all these setbacks, I never blamed god. Not even once. Instead, I thanked god for saving me from bigger problems and I thanked him for the better things he will send my way in replacement of the ones he took.  

All of this made me realise that no, the cost of living is not increasing in this country at an exponential rate. It is just "my" cost of living that is increasing continuously along with my financial growth.  

My mom always says that when you are in a tough spot, look at the people who are in a tougher spot than you to gather some hope. And when you are on the high, look at people who are higher than you to stay grounded.

Therefore, I went out on a stroll in Delhi, and I noticed people. Each one of them had their own life and own problems where they felt like the MVP. Every single one of them worked hard and had much bigger problems to deal with! I even saw people sleeping on the floor of the railway station, and I am still in a much better and comfortable space.

Life is kind; we just have some unrealistic expectations that I need to learn to manage. If anything, I will work harder!

And no matter how big these setbacks were, I still have enough money in the bank to help me live well, so I will be fine!

With this rant, I hope to see myself next week, and I will sign off with: